Thought Cloud
Value systems and morals. Roots and ideologies. I have none baselined. What am I? What do I truly want? Am I a hypocrite? A strange series of co-incidences? What is important to me? Do I justify it being important to me? Do I make it feel that it is important to me? Or do I just end up letting it feel entirely otherwise?
Why is it that we (I) often ignore the people and things that matter to us the most? Taking them for granted, most of the times. Fully knowing that this is simply incorrect. Not the way it should be. But then that’s the way it becomes. And then hope that things will turn right all by themselves.
I don’t want this. But then what is it that I do want? Am I ready to accept what I want and stick to it? Samples and experimentation. Where’s that from? Do I get a second chance? Does it matter? What if the choices I make are not in the best interest? Of not just me, but others concerned.
Selfishness. Is it trivial? Or is it the basis of survival? PR. Kickbacks. Unconditional acceptance. Sheesh!
At the crossroads, it is important to lay the strongest, sturdiest foundations. But what lame foundations, they are! Only to be challenged by the simplest of events. Shaky. Crumbly.
Façade. Charade. Unreal. When I don’t know what I really am. Or what I really want to be. Or what I feel I really ought to be. And the difference in being what I ought to be and what I want to be. Do I even know what I want to be?
Pride. Apparently people are proud of accomplishments. What accomplishments? You call that an accomplishment. Stoooopid! More right time, right place – coincidences.
They deserve so much better. 
Sorry.
And there’s so much more to be said.
Maybe _I_ need help!
Comment by Hrishikesh — 2008, Jun 11 @ 00:28
my dad says “every person has a purpose in this world, and that purpose will be fulfilled ” ….as said by you…”at the right time at the right place”.
I don’t know if these are coincidences or destinies.
probably I am not looking at the post from your P.O.V…..but the “right time…right place” funda applies to both thought clouds…
Comment by Pushkar Sheth — 2008, Jun 11 @ 01:06
Dude,
This is human mind at its level best. Why I am doing what I am doing?
Well dude, we never got tuned up during college time and neither after college did our areas of interests matched.
But this was surprising turn of events that two people (at least for this case there may be plenty) of such diverse backgrounds and such a different lifestyles and interests do come to a crossroad where they think alike.
Yea dude, may be this is one of my rarest comments to your blog, though I read every post of it, but this time you hit the thought which is spoiling my days also.
Anyway I hope you will find your way soon.
But seems strange eh! After two years toil you finally got into IIm and now these thoughts…
maybe I am looking at the post in a different perspective or so….
Anyway all the best.
Comment by Vidyadhar — 2008, Jun 11 @ 13:21
1. If you have your own moral code and not a copy of someone else’s, it means you’re better off as an individual.
2. You know someone matters to you most when you start taking them for granted
Comment by Aditya — 2008, Jun 11 @ 20:10
I am sure that the people who felt taken for granted do not now after reading this blog.
And just one advice : Don’t be too bothered by the future uncertainties of a relationship, you’ll never enjoy it this way. Take it a day at a time, it helps!
Comment by Ulka — 2008, Jun 14 @ 09:43
It was a total Bouncer for me. Made Nothing of it.
You have a good life ahead. B + and more importantly, Be yourself.
But just wondering, what made Hrishikesh Thite, such a Practical person write such a post ???
Comment by Varun — 2008, Jun 28 @ 19:05
Everything isn’t what it seems it is - in a cliched manner.
Comment by Hrishikesh — 2008, Jul 03 @ 02:21